i’m doing my best. but i am suffering tremendously. i’m closing out the new year- if anyone reads anything i say as slightly offensive, ignorant, or creating an atmosphere of negativity from the dates of 12/01/2023-01/01/2024 from this ip take me out of the equation.
i’m getting drunk and lit and it feels great to go out with a bang. 2023 changed me deeply and i wouldn’t have been able to be who i am without idmF. but i know i also do really stupid really ignorant really self-obsessed really twisted things when i’m drunk. like- rant about pointless shit and randomly unintentionally ignorantly insult an artist or the ENTIRE netlabel cuz in that second i’m trying to convey a message. this is who i am and i may not be around for the first few days of 2024. (on idmF)
but before i get too twisted i wanted to offer a cease-fire and apologize for any negative hateful offensive things i may have said in december. i’m out here with a target on my back and i do stupid stuff with my free time. i’m 34 (i think)
the netlabel functions SEPARATELY from the IDMf community.
^^^^ that’s the correct spelling of IDMf.
i’m bored now so i’m working on making evertything correct and functioning. i’m just really struggling. IDMf changed the game for me. and i will never forget that. but i gotta put my life first. my irl matters MORE than IDMf. i’m not going to prison for anyone on here EVER. none of you pay my rent. so whatever terrible disturbed or insulting shit i “say” (not that anything i ever do is)- point is if you get my point. my point is when the internet goes down and we all go dark. we’re no longer friends until we meet in person . and that’s ever. does that make sense? i’m trying to explain my bill situation and my hope that 2024 is a beautiful year. - this is where i ended up drunk ranting. does any of this make sense? cuz idk. i’m slipping into an alcohol coma now. and i wish everyone the best. all of you IDMf’er’s out there alone in the dark doing your beautiful things musically and spritually. THANK YOU IDMf for a beautiful 2023. i hope to see you all on the 2024 spectrum soon. and if not- don’t sell yourself short. you got HERE. YOU- YOU got to IDMf. no one held a gun to your head to come back here. so whoever’s left, and whoever is running shit now- thank you. i’m not capable of separating my emotions and my business. i’m not that guy- it all gets blended together 96% of the time with alcohol and fatigue. but for those semi-stable individuals who are still out there supporting IDMf and working towards keeping the netlabel and community alive. i gotta go- thank you for everything you do thank you so much i apologize for being a drunk and i apologize for being weak. and i am sorry i put my irl first it’s not fair. enjoy 2024 everyone idk when i’m gonna be on next but i’m getting over a 15 day flu. i hope hoever reads this knows not to stop making music and i alwso hope that whoever has the money to keep idmF alive that it actually matters. it’s not much- but it’s US. WE. US. we are together and i want 2024 to become a focal point for IDMf. let’s stop being afraid of what is. let’s except us and move on. IDMf is no longer what we once were. let’s move on and anything hateful or ignorant is said about the netlabel drunk and broke i apologize for. i do dirt- that’s how i see it- when shit hits the fan irl “i do dirt” - i’m working on this 2024. let’s accept & move on. (not ME- the netlabel)---- “i’m more of capable of separating feelings”— check it- merry christmas & HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERONE!!!. now i’m gonna go get more drunk and work on my music before i call the maintenance team to fix my apt from the fucked state it is. and cry over my coworker. thanks everyone we all did what we could this year. 2024 let’s do better and stronger. let’s try our best to better ourselves & our community (IDMf). and if not or if i’m not presenent. thank you. or something i’m too gone now haoppy 2024
