In this life, what do you want? Not your partner, your family, your country, your job. What do you want? yeah you, [you].
What is your dream? You can certainly say things like “to make money being a musician” or “to be content/happy” or “to touch @manton’s bum someday”, but that is your reflexive answer. How much have you really thought this through? Try to be specific and stick to the number one thing you want.
A few years ago when I was asked that question, those were the answers I gave when I was getting into it deep with One of my buddies, an accomplished and pretty well-known producer/DJ. He kind of caught me off guard when he asked me this question,
“wayne. what do you want?”
as we leaned against the rails of a mezzanine pounding shots of tequila from the bottle, overlooking the main stage of a festival we both were performing at (let’s just say I was playing Thursday at 2am on the forest stage and he was headlining Saturday night on the main).
It took me a decade to figure it out not only be able to answer it, but also commit to making life moves toward that thing that I want. Before that I could FEEL it but didn’t believe myself enough to materialize it into words and speak it into the world instantly when asked that question.
Psychoanalysis helps me to answer this question. I want to die.
But if you want an honest answer, I don’t know. And i think that everyone doesn’t know. A whole life consists of small desires, so…
Today i want a harpsichord and tomorrow i will want a gothic organ
hahaha I love this response. I mean, who doesn’t want to die? I might not have asked the original question very well, but I think maybe a better wording would be: what is your ultimate life’s purpose? or what would you like it to be? who do you want to be? it’s as hard a question to ask as it is to answer perhaps.
I used to want to be a sound director and a film scriptwriter, but now I’m trying to make music and plan to release a couple of games based on my stories and music.
Why music? Because i hear it in my mind every day and It would be nice if someone else could listen to it.
Why games? I’ve been playing games since I was 5-6 and there aren’t that many games that I like right now. It would be nice to make something that I would enjoy playing myself (and everyone who feel something like me)
In general, the creation of anything is connected with parental instinct(or smthng like that), maybe I want to leave a legacy for future(and for myself, i enjoy all my stuff)
I think what you want is constantly changing and is largely determined by your life circumstances. If I was living on the street, I’d probably just want clothes, a cheeseburger, a Bed and a roof over my head.
And then I get a job, all of a sudden I want a car, A girlfriend and an apartment.
Now ive got the girl now i want a family and a house.
Now ive got the family…and now i want time to myself. I wanna fuckin sleep in.
Life isn’t about what you want. Its about finding the balance between want you want.
I want to stop worrying about the next pile of shit life is going to throw at me tomorrow.
I want to stop living paycheck to paycheck. My wife lost her job today. Before that, earlier this week, we spent $2,000 on one of our cats to prevent her from dying an untimely death.
I want to stop being constantly fucked over.
I want peace of mind.
I want to not be obliged to work myself to death constantly, just so we can barely stay afloat and not end up homeless.
I want to be able to enjoy my life, for a change. Make music when I want to, not just when I’m not so dead tired and burnt out as a result of work stealing away the best times of my life every day every month every year every decade.
I want to stop living in a country where braindead morons elect the worst possible human cancer who then proceeds to destroy the country’s economy and whatever little joy in life people have left.
I want bad people to die horrible deaths.
I want people born into riches and privilege to fucking lose everything and live like us, the peasants.
I WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM: FUCK ALL THIS, FUCK YOU, LIFE.
Combine the screaming with the music and you’re halfway to a debut punk album. Kill two birds with one stone that way.
I want more control over my emotions for a start. I’ve been on a rollercoaster the last few years I’d like to get off. I’m starting therapy to work on that.
There’s a lot of other stuff I want that’s been mentioned - a car that isn’t so cheap and doesn’t get broken into all the time. A place of my own because no matter how you spin it you feel like a loser living with your parents in your 30s. A good night’s sleep - haven’t had that in a week. And yeah eventually some sort of girlfriend/partner type situation.
A lot of negativity fuels these wants, I want my own place so I don’t feel like a loser. I want a nicer car so it feels like I have accomplished something. I want emotional control so I don’t feel bad as often. And so on. The best I can do right now is try to move towards these things in positive ways - financial discipline to save for a home, therapy to work on my feelings, etc. I hope that makes my life better for now and I can figure out more later.
This is very profound, for real man but… it doesn’t really answer the question. I didn’t ask what life is about! Lol.
We all want a house, a mode of transportation, a decent partner, good friends, our kids to be healthy and not grow up shitty – we all want a go at a happy life. We all want to be able to balance all of the things, and struggle as little as possible, or less than we were the week before and the week before that. Of course!
Maybe I should just ask if you could choose your dream job what would it be. Lol. I was trying to be deep philosophical (at my middle age I’m still learning how to communicate clearly in my native language)… but fuck it, let’s get kindergarten with this. Kids say profound things too. Everyone break out your crayons.
Racecar driver originally, but I’d take mastering engineer too. Or maybe a judge, I’ve been reading a lot of tax law lately and getting to evaluate that kind of thing is actually kind of… gulp… fun.
good question - first Id love to see my daughter again. After that - I really dont know. Just take it as life goes. 42 years on this planet and I have seen and been through some crazy stuff. Some good, some bad - the ebb and flow of life.
I do know I really enjoy working and helping people out - I predict Ill be working till I die(which Im cool with). One of my goals is to open a Creole Food truck. Another goal is to have a side hustle recording sessions for punk and metal bands.
After that - just see where life takes me. Give some peeps hi fives, have some deep conversations and do some cool shit.
Fun fact: I actually released an album intended as a demo in 1999 that was a sort of hardcore/rock/punk thing. Think Social Distortion “White Light…” meets Backyard Babies “Total 13” music meets The Cure lyrics.
While I don’t think I’ll ever scream much on anything that I create, the latest stuff I’ve been working on has been much darker music. I even wrote lyrics so I may end up having to sing them… I still plan to release an EP this year. 4 or 6 tracks.
ok well, glad most of you guys were able to vent, this definitely was not what i was going for but @morphic my heart goes out to you. we can kill this whole convo and try another time. or never lol
What I want is to see the end of this filthy order. The end of this pathetic age of decadence, weakness, and hollow vapid garbage. What I want is to see the destruction of our current reality.
I want to hookup with posh spice in her spice girl days when she wasnt so anorexic, katy perry, fran drescher, tyra banks, the original pink power ranger, catherine zeta jones, willow from buffy the vampire slayer…etc…
