Reopened thread I see hmm
Questions like this are…
Difficult.
There’s a lot of options out there, a lot of things to “want.”
I’m going to be honest, I can’t be specific enough about this, but:
I want to see the world change for the better without my presence.
I want everybody to be able to live their best life without being there.
Posh spice is the type that would be looking for a sugar daddy, ginger is the popular high school crush, baby is the girl next door, sporty is one of the guys, scary doesnt come from your neighborhood lol.
I honestly can feel that coming in our lifetime. I think it will end up turning out to be a good thing and most/some/a few of us will pull through it but it’s going to be a fucking struggle for sure. I also want this.
What do you want for your own self, your personal life, your future?
They’re all beautiful. They were then, and they still are now. I’m not just saying that either. If I had to choose… particularly, Ginger I crushed on hard in grade school. But honestly, it’s all about Scary. Absolute smokeshow. I wanna live in her neighborhood. Whatever that means. lol 
Scary is the real smokeshow…
Ginger everyone has a crush on…everyone…
Ginger is beautiful but the whole everyone wanting to be with her kinda ruins it.
I like to keep my aspirations low and work from there, but I certainly want to move out of my family house and move into a flat. I just don’t know the first thing about doing that and my mum is no help. Things like this are just far too easy to put off with how cumbersome it can all be.
Yes ok, you gotta survive for sure. Get out of your parent’s house. Get an income stream if you don’t have one. Get a credit card if you don’t have one. Use that CC for small purchases only, and pay off every month. After a few months you will start building trust and beginning to raise credit score, which looks good to landlords. When I got kicked out of my parent’s I moved into a room at a friend’s parents house. I paid $120 a month lol.
I don’t know your life or situation, but the point of my question in this thread reaches beyond the status of survival mode. I’ve been in that mode in my life for many different periods, some of them lasting years. Absolutely when you’re just trying to see the next day, aspirations will be low. I get it.
We’re in the same boat.
I believe in you, it may be tough but you can’t go wrong in the big picture.
Just do it.
@wayne if it’s not too personal and helps us stay on topic, what was the thing that took you so long to figure out you wanted.
Looking back at my list, I kinda want to not want so much stuff. Or maybe to find more contentment with where I am. I’ve spent most of the last 10 years on a journey to somewhere better than I am. And every time I get there I find I’m not fulfilled and there’s another thing to want, hence that very uninspired list I gave in my original answer.
I can give a specific example - I remember my first long-term job out of college, I had to get off the freeway and make a left into a warehouse district every morning. The thing that sucked about that was you have to wait for a stoplight to change to make that left and it ate up like 5-10 extra minutes on my commute every day, and I remember sitting in that line watching all the cars that were making the right and didn’t have to wait. I thought to myself “man when I get to go to work in that nice office park to the right of the freeway I know I’ll have it made”. Now I work in EXACTLY THAT OFFICE PARK and I do not feel like I’ve got it made. Like, I’m proud of myself for getting here, but I’m also the most miserable I’ve ever been at this job. So I’m kinda sitting here going “shit, what now?” and grasping at bigger material possessions and women as my answer. Has to be the next step right? But now I’m afraid I’ll get that stuff and still feel this way. I’m pretty sure this isn’t the answer, but I don’t have another play right now.
Days like these, make me not want to be on this plane anymore. Its hard, but may be it is wort it somehow. I dont see it, but i have this small chunk of hope that i now share with you too. So lets hang to it and not overthink things.
