cannot believe it’s almost been a year. this album, or at least being invited to be involved in it, it saved my soul in a way, i have that bastard Nick @Manton to thank… dense motherfucker assigning me tasks and delegating projects to help him blast out this series of 5 IDMf compilations. which no one told him to do, he just decided to do it, then eventually also decided to infect me with that stress.
it was only appropriate though. a long time ago, around the time i was in new orleans… i was in the mind state of “FUCK THIS PLACE. I’M OUT” – pertaining to IDMf. Nick idk how it happened. maybe it was late night vox messages with RFJ, or maybe it was me getting on a stupid drunken rant and then you sending a response setting me straight, without you owing me it at all, you revealing your vision of transforming IDMF netlabel into Glitch Pulse Records.
Man I talked so much shit. Glitch Pulse? Lol what? did you come up with that? What’s wrong with the name “IDMf NETLABEL” anyawy? My hair’s a bird. not sure of the vailidity of your argument. lmao
in the end you were right. the process of composing/producing “MUTE” for retro5 and being involved in the creation and seeing it through, it was such an experience for me. and as my voice had just healed, and me having so much fuckin musical energy, i’ll always remember candi aussie ass being like well you know, your track is due in two weeks fucker.. anyway it all worked out.
the funny thing is, i love MUTE so much and it’s an important moment/track for me. it represents this 12 month period of my life where i literally could not communicate with my vocal cords. Idk in a way, Nick kinda helped pull me out of it and heal in an important way, by inviting me in to his vision of Glitch pulse.
I’m sold, i’m a fan, i’m forever here. it’s changed me. it was this combo of passing a “torch” emotionally that had literally been passed on before that (relinquishing control, making peace and fostering trust that Nick wouldn’t completely fuck it up (he didn’t)
he also also encouraged me, telling me (i’m paraphrasing) something along the lines of "dude you started the idmf netlabel, it’s transitioning to become Glitch pulse, YOU did this, you realize this has to be your track slot right?! you can’t NOT have that role.
Nick knows that I probably sent him about 20 different “final versions” for Mute. this is a special track. It wouldn’t have happened unless told me that he really thought it would fit into the whole scheme.
Anywho… this is like… version 9 or 10? the “final” version sounds nothing like this. this is really stripped down and raw. I thought it’s only appropriate that I reveal in some way how much went into this work. wouldn’t have happened with Manton allowing me unleash my struggle on him, day in day out. it’s really weird to be pressured by a guy who runs the label you started, way back when you pressured people to submit music to that same label, sometimes have to give em a little slap and tell them to buck the fuck up, make the music and stop being a bitch because the deadline was days and days ago.
anyway, that’s what nick did for me. i think he’s an integral part of what subquire is now, because if not for him giving me a little slap and telling me to stfu and make the music that is already there in my heart, stop stalling also a 20 minute lecture about why deadlines and meeting them are important… MUTE would not have happened.
it’s kind of cool to hear the elements stripped down in this.
long live GPR
anyway i drank my feelings tonight oh well. looked cute might delete later lol BFK would you help me out here please