Damn. Ya’ll reading my mind or what? I was thinking of selling all my gear again (except my DJ gear because mixing other people’s great music is always fun) which would ostensibly mean my quitting making music.
And then I realized this is the first time in m life I actually own all my gear outright. Currently just paying down one no-interest payment plan. But nothing on paypal credit or credit cards. Even if I pack it all up in boxes why sell it? The money would just make me poor people rich for like a month.
I’m trying really hard to just ignore the stuff I don’t like about music culture. I’m trying to take my own stuff less seriously. I don’t mean, not doing my best or not caring how something sounds but just doing my best and finishing a project and putting out there so I can “I created that. I finished that. I enjoyed doing it. If someone else enjoys it, cool.”
And not to toot my own horn, I’m a hell of a lot better than a lot of people putting that is supposed to be taken seriously as a finished project. Just observation. Some of them are delusional, some just want to share.
I dunno, every time I think about quitting I’m like what even is the point of making that so final? OK, so you don’t do anything with music for like two years. So what? Do it when you feel it because it isn’t your career. Like, I’ve never thrown out all of my art or craft making supplies because occasionally I get the itch and though I’m only OK at drawing, I still like to do once in a while and I’m confident enough I usually don’t mind sharing the results with friends.
I do the same thing with writing. (I actually need to go through the cloud and HDDs and collect up all the random files).
I guess my point is why quit when you can put it down and pick up where you left off when you feel it?